I admit it, I am one. I remember that when I was staying in the Halls in Uni, I had this kettle next to my desk where I can brew my instant coffee in less than a minute. I had at least 7 cups a day....talk about junkie huh.
Of all the coffee's that i've tried, I like the kopi tiam kind. Especially the ones with the condensed milk unstirred...resting at the bottom of the cup. Fortunate for me, the pantry auntie prepares such coffee! There is a can of condense milk on the table where you can help yourself to.
There lies the problem, the can opening varies day to day, the size of the opening depends on the auntie, sometimes it bigger, sometimes smaller. I have some difficulty in judging how much to pour into my cup. So on somedays the coffee is sweet, on others a tad bitter. Reminds me of life...sometimes its a good day, soemtimes its not. Coffee was perfect today, not too sweet, not too bitter. Wonder how my day would be...
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Monday, December 12, 2005
Worry wart
I can only imagine that one of the greatest feelings that a man can experience is that of "fatherhood" a change in his responsibilities and perhaps his perspective of life etc. To see a father gently carrying his babe, caring, protecting. They say that having a child usually mellows a person much. I look forward to that experience.
Recently heard someone share about having children and learning how to bring them up. It was mention that some of us will never have physical children but he emphasized that we should have spiritual children. I must testify that there is much truth in it. The experience is in a way out of this world. There is joy, disappointments and at the sametime the happiness when you see that your charges are doing well. There are also of course heartaches and times of mourning. But at the end of the day, like any experience, it makes us stronger. Strong because we learn from our expereince and of course that constant reminder that we too have a heavenly Father looking out for us, and the reminder too of how we should behave.
I worry for my charges all the time. They might not know about it, but I do. Someone mentioned that it makes them feel like kids. My reply - you don't only worry for kids. You worry for people that matter and care for.
As I look back on this eventful year, the joy, the pain, the tears the disappointments, the victories, I cannot help but smile. Why you might ask, because I've survived it, but most importantly I'm a better, stronger person. Thank you for all that you have done for me, my Father, and everyone that has played a part in my life. I appreciate all of you. Next year I want to try doing the Standard Chartered Marathon.
Recently heard someone share about having children and learning how to bring them up. It was mention that some of us will never have physical children but he emphasized that we should have spiritual children. I must testify that there is much truth in it. The experience is in a way out of this world. There is joy, disappointments and at the sametime the happiness when you see that your charges are doing well. There are also of course heartaches and times of mourning. But at the end of the day, like any experience, it makes us stronger. Strong because we learn from our expereince and of course that constant reminder that we too have a heavenly Father looking out for us, and the reminder too of how we should behave.
I worry for my charges all the time. They might not know about it, but I do. Someone mentioned that it makes them feel like kids. My reply - you don't only worry for kids. You worry for people that matter and care for.
As I look back on this eventful year, the joy, the pain, the tears the disappointments, the victories, I cannot help but smile. Why you might ask, because I've survived it, but most importantly I'm a better, stronger person. Thank you for all that you have done for me, my Father, and everyone that has played a part in my life. I appreciate all of you. Next year I want to try doing the Standard Chartered Marathon.
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
Goodbye 05 Hello 06
Yeap, its that time of the year. The Christmas air is in the wind, followed by the New year that is just around the corner, 32 days to be exact. Apparently, it was reported that a lot of people commit suicide over the holidays. Its that time when you start to feel depressed and stuff. I'm really not much of a holiday mood kinda person and guess it can get a little depressing because everybody is about busy perparing for the holidays and here you are sitting alone, thinking what you are going to do.
Well this year's different. Well, not so different after all. Am not planning anything extra-ordinary or planning to go for some happening party, but rather looking back the year, this year has just been really good. There have been ups and downs but most importantly, think I've grown up so much more in my thinking. I am thankful for all that I have expereienced this year. The good, the not so good, the bad, all of it.
Was looking through some photos that "Timothy" took together. Some of them were just pure silly, some of them funny, but it reminded me of all the times that we spent together, thank you for being a part of my life. It would be so different without you guys. Looking forward to the new year with you guys. Feeling a warm feeling in my heart...And all of this was possible because of the One who first loved us, our Lord Jesus Christ.
Well this year's different. Well, not so different after all. Am not planning anything extra-ordinary or planning to go for some happening party, but rather looking back the year, this year has just been really good. There have been ups and downs but most importantly, think I've grown up so much more in my thinking. I am thankful for all that I have expereienced this year. The good, the not so good, the bad, all of it.
Was looking through some photos that "Timothy" took together. Some of them were just pure silly, some of them funny, but it reminded me of all the times that we spent together, thank you for being a part of my life. It would be so different without you guys. Looking forward to the new year with you guys. Feeling a warm feeling in my heart...And all of this was possible because of the One who first loved us, our Lord Jesus Christ.
Monday, November 21, 2005
If first impressions count
He walks in to the room, looking confident, well groomed. If first impressions were to count as anything, you'll think - "This guy has it all made out for him"
im·pres·sion
n.
1. An effect, feeling, or image retained as a consequence of experience.
2. A vague notion, remembrance, or belief: I have the impression that we have met once before.
3. A mark produced on a surface by pressure.
4. The act or process of impressing.
Its only when he shared his life, his story that everything became clearer. Dyslexia is one of them, broken family, and a myrid of other unseen issues. He shared because he was looking for something - acceptance.
It easy to look at someone and form some kind of impression. But often that is only skin-deep, surely our lives go deeper than the superficial epidermis. I think sometime, we only see what we want to see. We choose to look at the world and people with our own polarizing glasses. We filter out what we want to see and what we don't want to see.
This is dedicated to K who was so inspiring in sharing his life story. My heart goes out to you, but at the same time, I salute you because of the strength you have displayed. You have encouraged me and inspired me. Counting my blessings.
im·pres·sion
n.
1. An effect, feeling, or image retained as a consequence of experience.
2. A vague notion, remembrance, or belief: I have the impression that we have met once before.
3. A mark produced on a surface by pressure.
4. The act or process of impressing.
Its only when he shared his life, his story that everything became clearer. Dyslexia is one of them, broken family, and a myrid of other unseen issues. He shared because he was looking for something - acceptance.
It easy to look at someone and form some kind of impression. But often that is only skin-deep, surely our lives go deeper than the superficial epidermis. I think sometime, we only see what we want to see. We choose to look at the world and people with our own polarizing glasses. We filter out what we want to see and what we don't want to see.
This is dedicated to K who was so inspiring in sharing his life story. My heart goes out to you, but at the same time, I salute you because of the strength you have displayed. You have encouraged me and inspired me. Counting my blessings.
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Friends that matter
Man is not a solitary creature but a social one. He needs to interact not only with his environment but with others of his kind. One of the things that really amazes me is how a baby, when borned, is incapable of communication of any sorts except to cry, can grow up and articulate and communicate how he/she feels. And the other person can understand despite being 2 totally different individuals with different experiences in life. Whenever I think of that, it leaves me speechless and dumbfounded in amazement.
friend
n.
1. A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.
2. A person whom one knows; an acquaintance.
3. A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade.
4. One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement: friends of the clean air movement.
5. Friend A member of the Society of Friends; a Quaker.
Friends are one of the important things in life. Why? Because its really through the interactions with your friends that really form your thought patterns on a myrid of issues. I rememeber one particular friend that told me off because I was insensitive and did not think beyond myself. There was another who challanged me to think what I wanted in life and yet another that taught me that there was a world beyond the shores of Singapore. I thank God for such people. Many people will pass your way, but not many of them will leave a mark on your life some will leave you in despair, some will inspire you, some will make you a better person. Are you a friend that makes a difference? - friends that matter.
friend
n.
1. A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.
2. A person whom one knows; an acquaintance.
3. A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade.
4. One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement: friends of the clean air movement.
5. Friend A member of the Society of Friends; a Quaker.
Friends are one of the important things in life. Why? Because its really through the interactions with your friends that really form your thought patterns on a myrid of issues. I rememeber one particular friend that told me off because I was insensitive and did not think beyond myself. There was another who challanged me to think what I wanted in life and yet another that taught me that there was a world beyond the shores of Singapore. I thank God for such people. Many people will pass your way, but not many of them will leave a mark on your life some will leave you in despair, some will inspire you, some will make you a better person. Are you a friend that makes a difference? - friends that matter.
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
New Beginnings
It funny how to have to go through something totally new so near the end of the year. Its day 3 of the new "wake up at 7am" regime. I must say it takes a little bit more discipline to sleep earlier so that I'm not "grumpy" in the morning. I'm not a morning person, usually takes me a couple of hours to warm up to face the new day haha.
grump·y
adj. grump·i·er, grump·i·est
Surly and peevish; cranky.
grumpi·ly adv.
grumpi·ness n.
Its all about timing. Sometimes I wonder how much of things am I missing out when I just focused on my own life, the missed opportunities, the chance meetings etc. My new regime saw me in the lift at 7.20am.
On the 13th floor, a father came in with his son. Probably sending the son to school. The son was fiddling with his wallet, he was trying to attach some cord to his wallet. Its one of those cords that is conencted to the wallet at one end and at the other end to the person. This is to prevent the wallet from being lost if it accidentally drops out of the pocket. I never had one of those. I never lost my wallet also (hope not speaking too soon). Guess there are more things in life to worry about?
Being a student was pretty much a carefree life for me. I took things real easy (maybe a bit too easy...look at me now). I wonder what kinds of stuff a kid has to deal with today. I think i might not survive....life was so much simpler then...
grump·y
adj. grump·i·er, grump·i·est
Surly and peevish; cranky.
grumpi·ly adv.
grumpi·ness n.
Its all about timing. Sometimes I wonder how much of things am I missing out when I just focused on my own life, the missed opportunities, the chance meetings etc. My new regime saw me in the lift at 7.20am.
On the 13th floor, a father came in with his son. Probably sending the son to school. The son was fiddling with his wallet, he was trying to attach some cord to his wallet. Its one of those cords that is conencted to the wallet at one end and at the other end to the person. This is to prevent the wallet from being lost if it accidentally drops out of the pocket. I never had one of those. I never lost my wallet also (hope not speaking too soon). Guess there are more things in life to worry about?
Being a student was pretty much a carefree life for me. I took things real easy (maybe a bit too easy...look at me now). I wonder what kinds of stuff a kid has to deal with today. I think i might not survive....life was so much simpler then...
Monday, November 07, 2005
Bend it.....
Today was one of the earliest days that I woke up ever since I got a car. Guess I've been leading a pretty blessed life. Got up at 7am. The reason? - LTA decided that the ECP was to congested and has increased the price of ERP to $2... When i started driving to work it was 50 cents! Anyway, I beat the ERP and I'm pretty happy cos I saved $1.50. Guess thats the price of 30 minutes of sleep.
Waxed my car over the weekend, so she's shining like a beauty again. Apologies for having neglected you baby. Guess I've been caught up with other things in my life... really need to re-focus.
Someone said something yesterday that really helped me change my thinking (that doesn't happen often). We usually think of rules as a prohibition of sorts. Like a parent telling a kid what he can or cannot do. We think of it as restrictive, something to hinder us from doing what we want. Boundaries are defined, perhaps too defined. Guess I like blurred lines. But these boundaries allow us to function within an acceptable limit.
An example was given. Cos the lines are drawn and rules made clear, we can function within those boundaries. For example, when 2 people interact, we agree (sub-consciously) to abide by certain rules, rules of being civilized, of being honest and resepcting each others space. It is because of the rules that we understand that we can intereact at that level. If there were no rules, I wonder how many of us will be willing to interact with anyone... Cheem? Go think about it.
Unfortunatley, there are some people who don't abide by such rules. Not sure if they do it on purpose or are clueless about the existence of such rules. Whatever the case, I find it most tiresome and exhausting in such cases. I need a holiday...
Waxed my car over the weekend, so she's shining like a beauty again. Apologies for having neglected you baby. Guess I've been caught up with other things in my life... really need to re-focus.
Someone said something yesterday that really helped me change my thinking (that doesn't happen often). We usually think of rules as a prohibition of sorts. Like a parent telling a kid what he can or cannot do. We think of it as restrictive, something to hinder us from doing what we want. Boundaries are defined, perhaps too defined. Guess I like blurred lines. But these boundaries allow us to function within an acceptable limit.
An example was given. Cos the lines are drawn and rules made clear, we can function within those boundaries. For example, when 2 people interact, we agree (sub-consciously) to abide by certain rules, rules of being civilized, of being honest and resepcting each others space. It is because of the rules that we understand that we can intereact at that level. If there were no rules, I wonder how many of us will be willing to interact with anyone... Cheem? Go think about it.
Unfortunatley, there are some people who don't abide by such rules. Not sure if they do it on purpose or are clueless about the existence of such rules. Whatever the case, I find it most tiresome and exhausting in such cases. I need a holiday...
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